Sunday, November 27, 2005

A word about my last entry...


I have thought a lot about my last entry. One thing has been on my mind, and I wanted to clear it up. I made the following statement:

I can honestly say that last night I made no mistakes. I played every hand the way it should be played, and as a result, I came out on top.

I followed that up by relating how I called an all-in and a re-raise that put me all in with AJ of diamonds. Some would see this as a mistake. Here's my rationale, and you can then determine if it was a mistake.

The guy who went all in for 6000 at 1000/2000, I put him on a strong hand. AQ, AK, or a pair. The drunk guy who raised to 10000 I was not putting on a strong hand. He had called me down earlier on the river with no pair. I had also heard from other players how he had been raising with crap all night, but that he just happened to get lucky.

The thought process was, I can call myself all-in and be an underdog to the initial raiser. I was pretty sure that I had the drunk guy beat. So let's assume that I lose to the initial all-in but win against the drunk. I will lose 6000 and win 4000. I've already got 1000 in the pot, since I'm in the small blind, so basically, I'm out the price of the small blind (since it would take another 1000 to call the big blind, if nobody had raised). Basically, I'm paying 1000 to call a 4000 raise. It is almost as if the drunk had just slipped me the 4000, to offset the 6000 of calling the first all-in. I figured it was worth the price to take the chance.

As it turned out, the drunk had a hand, albeit a weak one. I don't believe I would have called an all-in with pocket deuces, much less raised to 10000 with them.

The point is that I don't consider this a bad play because of the thought that went into it. I was basically looking at losing only 2000 for the chance to almost triple up. I was already well into the points payout, so I was playing to win, not survive. Think about it, and I think you'll agree that it was the proper play given the circumstances.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Winning at the Loafing Leprechaun

My philosophy of life is that if we make up our mind what we are going to make of our lives, then work hard toward that goal, we never lose - somehow we win out.

--Ronald Regan
Last night was a great night at the tables. I managed to win the tournament at the Loafing Leprechaun! There were more than 44 people in the tourney. [There were 46. -JS] I'm happy more about the way I played than the fact that I won.

I can honestly say that last night I made no mistakes. I played every hand the way it should be played, and as a result, I came out on top.

There's really not a pivotal hand on which the entire tournament turned, but the closest hand was at the 1000/2000 blind level. Final table, 7 left and I'm in the small blind with AJ of diamonds. UTG goes all-in for 6000, and a drunk guy at the end of the table (who called me down on a K-J-8 board with 10-3 earlier) made it 10000 to go. I had 1000 in the blind and 9000 left. I called. UTG turned over pocket 7's, and the drunk turned over pocket 2's. The flop came A-A-10, the turn and river were blanks, and I had almost tripled up. It put me in very good position for the rest of the tourney, as it made me the chip leader. I never looked back.

I'm just happy with the way I played. I didn't get tired, I didn't make bad decisions. That's most of the battle of a poker tourney right there. The whole point of playing poker (for me, at least) is that I become the best player that I can. I want to know that i can play an entire tournament and not make a fatal mistake. If I make the correct decision, it doesn't matter to me whether the other guy draws out on me and puts me out. I just want to know that I didn't beat myself. Last night I didn't beat myself, and in the process I beat everyone else.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

What a Call!


Here's a hand that happened at Buffalo Wild Wings last week. I am very proud of my decision here, so I'd like to share it.

I'm in the small blind. Stacks are as follows:

ME: 2150

BB: 1800

UTG: 1350

UTG+1: 2500

C/O: 3200

Button: 450

Blinds: 50/100

I'm dealt AA in the Small blind. UTG calls, everyone folds to me. I make it 300 to go. BB calls, UTG calls.

The flop comes J 3 J. Not ideal. I bet 200 to see where I'm at and the BB instantly goes all-in. UTG thinks for a while and folds. There is 1000 in the pot, plus the extra 1300 from the BB, for a total of 2300. I have to call 1300 for a chance at the 2300 pot. If I win, I have 3600. If I lose, I have 350.

**The resolution:

I thought about it, and decided that I was up against a pocket pair, but not jacks or threes. I figured if he had either, he would have raised, but the all-in smelled of a "please go away" bet. I finally called, and he turned over ... pocket 4's. The aces held up.

Tuesday, November 8, 2005

Royal Hold'em

Your best chance to get a Royal Flush in a casino is in the bathroom.

-VP Pappy
UltimateBet has begun spreading a new type of Hold'em called Royal Hold'em. The basic gist is that the game is played with a maximum of six players using only the 10 through Ace of each suit. This gives a 20-card deck. This is a very fun variation, and has been somewhat profitable, even with my admittedly small sample size. I had 68 cents in my UB account left over from my last cashout. I took it to the $0.01/$0.02 Royal Hold'em table and turned it into $2. From there, I stepped up to the $0.02/$0.04 table. Went from $2 to $5. From there, it was to the $0.05/$0.10 table, where I got my balance up to $10. I stepped up to the $0.25/$0.50 table last night, and was up to $19, but I dropped $11 when I had kings full of aces, and the only hand that could beat me was pocket aces. My opponent had the rockets.

This variation of Hold'em is interesting in that winning with two pair is as rare as winning regular Hold'em with seven high. If you flop a straignt, about the best you can hope for is for the board to make the same straight you hold and split the pot with the rest of the players in the hand. Most pots are won with a full house. It is not uncommon for a pot to be taken down with four of a kind. (I've had quads twice since I started writing this...) Royal flushes are not uncommon either. I had two last night, and I've never had one in a year-and-a-half of playing poker both on-line and live.

There is some humor in watching the chat for the unsuspecting regular Hold'em player who has stumbled into a Royal Hold'em room. Comments like "What's with these flops?" and "I've had the best run of cards ever, but I just can't win!" are priceless. It's interesting, since most folks playing in these rooms haven't figured out the optimal strategy. I guess that's why I could be up 2794% yesterday.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Atlanta Race Weekend

"No, he didn't slam into you, he didn't bump you, he didn't nudge you...he RUBBED you. And rubbin', son, is racin'."

--Robert Duvall (Harry Hogge) in Days of Thunder
This weekend was race weekend at Atlanta Motor Speedway. I usually don't make an effort to attend the race, but this weekend I had the opportunity to go to the Craftsman Truck race on Saturday. I also attended the IROC race that was held immediately prior to the truck race.

My parents have, for the last several years, attended the race with my mom's sister and her husband. They camp at the racetrack, and attend all the races throughout the weekend. Last year, we met them for supper on Saturday night in Morrow, and we were going to do the same this year. Plans changed somewhat, however, when Leila's brother managed to get tickets to the truck race on Saturday.

So, Saturday morning, we loaded up Camille, Bryant and his friend Victor, and Leila and headed for the racetrack. We met up with my parents at the motorhome and visited for a while. Then, we made our way into the racetrack.

We were on row 62, so it was quite a hike to our seats. I was pretty beat when we got there. I was pleasantly surprised with the quality of the IROC race. I've never really been that interested in the IROC series, but the racing was pretty good.

The truck race was the highlight, though. There was a wreck at the beginning of lap 2 that caused the race to be red-flagged for 20 minutes. The remainder of the race was pretty clean, up until the last lap. Jack Sprague was leading, but Kyle Busch was coming on strong, coming from 5th to second in two laps. Coming out of turn 4, Kyle was making his move on the outside of Sprague, and Sprague tried to pinch Busch off by moving up. He pinched Busch to the wall, and Busch bounced off the wall and back into Sprague. Sprague went spinning and collected several other trucks. Busch went on to win.

It was a very exciting finish, a great way to end my first truck race. I've never really paid much attention to the truck races either, but after Saturday, I may change my mind.

After the race, we went to dinner with my parents and aunt and uncle. The service was unusually bad at the Roadhouse Grill. We couldn't get a good drink, and Victor's entree was first too rare, then too done. He ended up just cancelling the order. The funny thing is that they weren't all that busy.

We got home about 9:30. All in all, a very nice day. I'll have to do it again next year.

Friday, October 7, 2005

UN Tries to Take Over the Internet

There is so much media now with the Internet and people, and so easy and so cheap to start a newspaper or start a magazine, there's just millions of voices and people want to be heard.

--Rupert Murdoch
According to an eWeek article, the United Nations is planning to try to wrestle control of the internet from the United States. What makes this scary is that it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that if the UN manages to take control of the internet that it won't be long before they will be regulating what can be posted. Any organization that cozys up to China and puts countries like Lybia on a "Human Rights Council" can't be trusted with something as important as the internet. The UN's own Declaration of "Human Rights" states that freedom of speech is guaranteed...unless that speech interferes with the UN's goals. Think about that for a moment.

To its credit, the US Government is planning to fight the takeover attempt. The US invented the internet, and the rest of the world is hitching it's wagon to the invention of the US Military. If they get especially belligerent about it, I would fully support withdrawing completely to within the US with regard to the internet. Just make it work for the US, and let the rest of the world figure out their own system. In other words, take our ball and go home. We'll see how long the rest of the world will last without being propped up by the US.

Another Second Place at BWW

There is no room for second place.

-Vince Lombardi
In a sense, that's true. But sometimes, second isn't all that bad. When you're competing in a points event, consistency is the key. Just look at NASCAR. The championship usually isn't won by the person who wins the most races, but rather by the person who consistently finishes close to the front.

We had just enough folks at Buffalo Wild Wings last night to place everyone in the second column of the points table. With the Braves playing a home playoff game, Georgia Tech playing at home, and the weather being crappy, we were eight regular players short, meaning we all basically started out at the final table. There were nine of us, and I finished second. Bryant's friend (and mine) Tommy finished third. I had the win in hand until my opponent sucked out on me twice in a row for the win.

I'll be back at the Loafing Leprechaun on Tuesday, trying to rack up more points. I may have to find a different place to play than BWW, because so far there haven't been enough folks there to make the points payout worth it. I need to find a tourney with 30-40 players, and BWW just doesn't have that kind of traffic.

Thursday, October 6, 2005

Million Dollar Homepage

When I was young I thought that money was the most important thing in life; now that I am old I know that it is.

-Oscar Wilde
There was an item that was discussed on TWIT for October 2, 2005 about the Million Dollar Homepage. It seems that some guy put up a page that has one million "pixels". Advertisers (or just ordinary folks) can purchase pixels for a buck a pixel. So if you wanted to post a 10x10 pixel ad, it would cost you $100.

Apparently, the guy is doing this to pay for college, and I've got to say that it's a pretty ingenious idea. It seems to be working, as they said he had made about $250,000 (and had his PayPal account frozen, as well). What do you think the chances are that clones of this site are going to start popping up like crazy?

Tech Vidcasts and BitTorrent

I used to be a huge fan of the show "The Screensavers", which aired on TechTV every night. What could be better for a geek than a live television show devoted to the cutting edge of technology? From Leo Laporte to Patrick Norton to Kevin Rose, I felt as if the stars of the show were somewhat of a "geek family" to me. I was extremely saddened when Comcast bought TechTV and merged the channel in with their horrible G4 channel. After the merger, they basically dumped all the tech-based shows in favor of shows having to do with video games. They kept The Screensavers, but Leo and Patrick weren't part of it. The show quickly went downhill. It finally got so bad that I couldn't watch it. It eventually turned into a show called "Attack of the Show", which is some of the most atrocious television you could watch.

Imagine my elation to find out that my favorite Screensavers alums were doing video podcasts. Now I could watch my favorite tech personalities without the constraints of a corporate structure holding them back. The webcasts are great, by the way. I look forward to each new episode. I have added links to my favorite shows to the menu on the right under "Science & Technology". TWIT (This Week In Tech) is hosted by Leo Laporte, with a slew of guests that usually include Kevin Rose and Patrick Norton, as well as John Dvorak. Systm and Diggnation are productions of Kevin Rose, with co-hosts Dan Huard and Alex Albrecht. DigitalLifeTV is hosted by Patrick Norton and Robert Herron from TechTV. Command-N is a show hosted by Amber MacArthur, who is a TechTV Canada host. All of these are worth checking out.

All of this brings me to BitTorrent, a fabulous bit of file-sharing technology. This technology doesn't necessarily make it easier or quicker to download a file, but it takes the bandwidth burden off of the distributor. Since you're pulling "bits" of the file from your peers (others who have or are downloading the file), you're not costing the distributor bandwidth charges. I think this is important for the fledgling download-only shows. Most don't have advertisements, or they have very little ad support, so they're not making a ton of money. Bandwidth is expensive, and with the popularity of these personalities, their monthly bandwidth can be measured in terabytes (!!!). The use of BitTorrent takes some of this responsibility off of them, thereby ensuring the continuation of these great shows.

I personally use the Azureus BitTorrent client, and while it is slower than a direct download, I see it as my duty to help these guys out in any way I can. Check out these shows -- you'll like them.

Four Months a Dad

Spread the diaper in the position of the diamond with you at bat. Then, fold second base down to home and set the baby on the pitcher's mound. Put first base and third together, bring up home plate and pin the three together. Of course, in case of rain, you gotta call the game and start all over again.

--Jimmy Piersal, on how to diaper a baby
Yesterday my daughter turned four months old. I've been a dad for four months, and I have to say that there is very little to compare to holding this little bundle and trading smiles and silly noises. I love to just hold her in my lap and make faces at her. She'll laugh a big, open-mouthed laugh, and I swear, she's the cutest thing to ever grace the face of the earth.

I still continue in my quest to be the world's best dad, and I think I'm doing a fair job. She's healthy and happy, and that's the whole point -- raise a healthy, happy baby. In fact, she's extremely healthy. She had her four-month checkup (and shots!!!) yesterday, and she weighed in at 19 pounds, 3 ounces and 27 inches long. She's big, but she's proportional. I feel like once she starts sitting up and crawling that she'll drop some weight, or at least level off in the weight gain.

She's started vocalizing, and it's the sound of angels. She has such a sweet voice, even when she's gurgling.

I hold out hope, as all parents do, that she will continue to be healthy and happy. I also hold out hope that I won't screw up too bad as a parent. I don't think I will, but there's always the possibility. Stay tuned for breaking developments.

Wednesday, October 5, 2005

The Beat Goes On

The single greatest key to winning is knowing thy enemy -- yourself.

-Andy Glazer
I played in another of the free poker tourneys last night, this one at the Loafing Leprechaun in Duluth. I think I had a pretty good chance to win, had I been able to lay down one key hand. But I'll get to that later.

FullHouseHold'em, the company that my brother-in-law works for, started their "Poker League" last night. The Poker League is basically a 20-week point gathering expedition in which players get points for finishing in the top eight in any tournament that FullHouseHold'em runs. At the end of the 20 weeks, the top points players will get together for a final tourney where the first prize is a paid entry to the 2006 World Series of Poker. All this is sponsored by Bluff Magazine.

Anyway, I decided that since you can play in any number of tourneys a week, that I'd start off trying to earn some early points. My best hand of the night came when I was in the big blind with pocket threes. The flop came 3-3-x. It was checked around, and the turn was a five. The small blind checked, I checked, and UTG+1 went all-in. It was folded around to me, and I called, blurting out "Can you beat quads?" before I could stop myself. The river was a blank, and I doubled up. During the break, I apologized for my rather dickish remark, and the guy said he completely understood. Quads are a very rare thing, except for last night. In this tourney, five sets of quads were hit. What're the odds? No, really, what are the odds? I don't know.

The hand I should have layed down came very near the final table. The blinds were 400/800, and I was in the big blind with a fair sized chip stack, and was dealt K-7 offsuit. It was folded to the small blind who completed, and I checked. The flop was K-x-x, two spades. The small blind checked, and I bet 1000. He raised to 2000, so I went all-in. He called with the nut flush draw, and hit it on the turn. This left me with 400 in chips with 11 people left in the tourney. Somehow I managed to hang around and finish sixth, so I managed to snag some points.

Ironically, my sixth place finish was worth more points than my first place finish last Thursday would have been worth, due to the small field last Thursday and the large field last night. Here's the chart that explains how points are awarded:



As you can see, the points are based not only on your finishing position, but on how many people were in the tourney.

I'm going to try to keep playing two a week, at the Loafing Leprechaun and at Buffalo Wild Wings, but I don't know how long that will go over with the wife. I'm going to try my best to rack up the points, though. I really want to be in that final tourney. I feel like my tourney game is starting to come around, and that I'm becoming a very good tourney player. I guess time will tell if that's really the case or if I'm just fooling myself.

Oh, and by the way, I entered the $5 Turbo on PokerChamps yesterday (the same one that I won on Sunday) and came in second out of a field of 40.

Interesting Exchange About Winning at Poker

The house doesn't beat the player. It just gives him the opportunity to beat himself.

-Nick Dandalos
I read several poker blogs on a daily basis, and one of them is by Bob Rotruck, aka MicroBob from the 2+2 forums, located here. He had a post today that I felt the urge to reply to, not because of his position, but because of the position of the person who he's having the disagreement with.

Here's Bob's post:
Certified Moron Status!!

That's how someone described the latest little exchange with 'online gambling expert' Stephen Katz regarding his claims that internet-poker is not beatable.

Somebody on 2+2 wrote to him and got a reply:

Basically, if somebody doesn't want to spend $2,000 of their own money (as well as time) to prove to HIM something that THEY already know they are successfully doing for income then he refuses to believe it exists.

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After reading that little note, I send an e-mail to him. Very polite, not disaggreeing with his goals, just telling him he was wrong. Got a response the very next day, kinda funny and pathetic. Here is my e-mail and his response:

Just read a short article by Mr. Katz re online poker.

Unfortunately, Mr. Katz doesn't know what he is talking about. There are plenty of good reasons not to gamble. Gambling destroys thousands of lives and negatively influences the lives of millions more. However, making things up and/or lying about certain types of gambling is, in my opinion, counter productive to the cause of gambling prevention.

What Mr. Katz's piece offers is an incentive for people to find out more about online poker. Why? Because it is so obviously wrong. How do I know it's wrong? I support my family by playing online poker, and have done so for several years, as do many of my aquaintances.

Look, you can't just go around saying "you can't beat the rake!". Whether or not the rake can be beaten depends on the size of the rake relative to the game, and your skill relative to the other players in it. No matter how noble your motives, the ends don't justify the means, and in these case the means are counter productive to the desired end.

Just thought you should know


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Some of your comments are good and that is appreciated.

But unless you PROVE your claims of winning, anyone stating that they are winning money in the long-run playing online poker, is only a rumor. Don't take it personal - I say that to EVERYONE.

You probably realize that gambling income is taxable and so you have paid taxes on the money. So simply do the following. Post in a public forum, not to me because anyone can photoshop items, do it in a public forum whereby everyone can see it including the IRS which also canvases the internet looking for tax cheats. No one should ever publicly post a false tax return. To the best of my knowledge this is a federal offense.

So...post copies of your last years federal tax return. Post two years since you said "several years." Also post copies of your credit card transactions and documentation from the gambling websites regarding deposits and withdrawals. Before posting though, take all this documentation to a very reputable accounting firm and have all the information audited. They will matchup the documentation with your bank statements, etc. And also post a signed letter from this accounting firm regarding the audit and the accuracy of your documentation. Since you've been paying your taxes and have filed and previously calculated all these figures anyway, this should all be quite easy for you to quickly hand over to the accounting firm. The audit will probably cost you around $2,000 but since you are making all this money playing online poker, a couple thousand bucks should be peanuts to you.

Everyone who I have asked to do this has refused despite the simplicity. If you want to do it...fine, e-mail me back with the public website info after it is posted and of course I'll take a look at it. If you don't want to do it...fine, but the article stands as fact. We both know that there is not any formula for "proving" that online poker can be beat. The best hand doesn't always win - it can be bluffed out. So again...the only way to prove claims of winning money would be showing documented and audited proof of this income. You made the claims, so prove it!

Best Regards,

Steve
And here's my comment:
That's nuts. Saying that you can't make money playing online poker because you can't beat the rake is like saying Best Buy can't make money because they can't beat the electric bill! It's a cost of doing business, and it's certainly beatable.

However, arguing with a fool is pointless. Although, I will say that from his response, it looks like he knows the fallacy of his argument, and is trying to make it unnecessarily difficult and expensive for anyone to prove him wrong.

I fall into the social conservative group, but I do play poker. I play blackjack when I have the advantage (i.e., a bonus is involved), and I have the occasional drink. I believe in moderation in things, so I don't drink to excess, and I don't gamble where there is a large house advantage.

I consider poker a game of skill, not gambling. There is some luck involved, but that goes for golf, tennis, baseball, football, hockey, Scrabble, Monopoly and Tiddlywinks. But what separates poker from the rest of the casino games is that you are not playing against the house. You are pitting your skill against the skill of the other players. The rake is simply "rent for the space" to play.

I would say that I hope he comes around, but that'll never happen. He has his agenda, and even if someone were to provide the proof he asks, the very next words out of his mouth would be "That's an anomoly. One person winning doesn't prove anything." Sadly, it's blowhards like this that will end up getting the attention.

Perhaps it's time to form a lobbying group to look out for our interests.

Tuesday, October 4, 2005

My First Live Tournament Win, My First Online Tournament Win

Poker is a combination of luck and skill. People think mastering the skill part is hard, but they're wrong. The trick to poker is mastering the luck.

--Jesse May, from "Shut Up and Deal"
Well, I have had quite a week at the tables. In the span of four days, I have notched my first live tournament win and my first online tournament win. I will say that it seems that I have the best luck when I'm down to the felt with sky-high blinds. I was in that situation in both tournaments.

We'll start with the live tournament. The tournament was one of the free-to-enter bar tourneys that are held in the Atlanta area. This particular one was at Buffalo Wild Wings in Alpharetta on September 29, 2005. I finished second in the tourney on September 22, so having had decent luck I decided to return the next week. Two tables to start, with prizes of $40, $20, and $10 house cash for the top three finishers.

I started off playing my normal tight aggressive game, folding most hands and watching everyone get crazy with less than premium hands. I did have one great hand in the first half-hour. I held AK suited and with blinds at 20/40 raised to $200. I got one caller. The flop came with nothing higher than a ten. I bet $500 and got called. It was at this point I was pretty sure I was beat. I was putting the guy on AT or JJ. The turn was no help to me, so I checked. The other guy bet $1000, and I folded. I think I made the right read on this guy, and am happy with the decision that I made to lay my hand down.

I played a few other hands, never hitting anything on the flop. I was in danger of getting pretty short, with about 1400 in chips at the 50/100 level when I looked down and saw Aces. I was under the gun, and I raised to $300. Everyone folded around to the big blind, who called. The flop came K97 rainbow. The big blind checked, and I bet $300. She put me all in and I called in a shot. She showed K2 offsuit. I have to say that up until that point I had been pretty impressed with this lady's play. She always showed down strong hands, but I don't know what she was thinking there. She had to put me on a big hand, and even if I had K3, she was in big trouble. I won't complain, though, because it really got me back into things for the next hour.

Coming to the end of the next hour, I was getting really short. It was final five players, blinds at 400/800, and I had 1100 in chips. The break hit just as I was about to pay the big blind. When we came back from break, we had been colored up, and since they round up the chips when they color up, I had 1500 in chips with the blinds at 500/1000. I decided that I had to do something, so I just posted all-in blind. I got two callers who basically checked it down to the river. I had 72 of spades, and the flop came all spades. The turn was a blank club, but the river was the queen of spades. At this point I was sure I was beat, but the other two opponents turned over hands full of red cards! I had tripled up.

I folded until I was in the big blind again. There were two callers. The flop came K-Q-10, and I was holding J9! The small blind checked, I checked, and UTG checked. The turn was a blank. Again, the small blind checked, I checked, and UTG called out "All In". The small blind folded, and I called. He turned over K6, and I took it down. Over the course of the next ten hands, I flopped another straight to knock out one opponent, and turned a straight to knock out another. We were finally heads up, with me having about 20,000 in chips to my opponent's 2000.

Heads up only lasted three hands. The last hand had me in the big blind with QT. My opponent went all in and I called. The flop came KJA, and it was over. My wife had been sweating me all night, and she actually took a picture of me "WSOP-Style" with me standing behind the chip stack holding up my cards and the house cash certificates.

The online tourney was on Sunday afternoon. I was sitting in the living room watching the race and basically just killing time. I entered the 2:30 $5 Turbo tourney on PokerChamps. There were 39 players, for a prize pool of $195.

Just like the live tourney, I played a tight-aggressive game, but thought it was all over when I got my AK all in against AJ, and the guy spiked a jack on the flop. I was left with $54 at the 50/100 level. I managed to double up several times, always picking the best spots to put it all in. When we got down to heads up, I had a 25k chip lead. Several hands later, it was all over. To be quite honest, online play happens so fast that I rarely remember exact hands, so I don't even know what I won with. I did manage to take a screenshot of my success, though. Here it is:

Monday, June 27, 2005

Fatherhood!

There's no pillow quite so soft as a father's strong shoulder.

--Richard L. Evans
Wow. I've been a father for three weeks, and I'm just now getting time to write something about it. It's been an exhausting time, but rewarding beyond explanation.

I suppose I should get the preliminaries out of the way first:

Camille Grace Saunders, Born June 5, 2005, 8 pounds 2 ounces, 22.5 inches long.



There's just something different about being a father. It's not something that I think I can put into words. It is an exciting thing, yet scary at the same time, to find yourself entirely responsible for the health, well-being, happiness, and upbringing of a brand-new human being. I still secretly wonder if I have the knowledge to be a good father. I really hope that I do. I really just want to live up to the example that my dad set when I was growing up.

I must say that Camille has been an extremely good baby. She sleeps well, she eats well, and she cries only when she's hungry or needs her diaper changed.

The thing I'm happiest about is that she's an extremely cute baby. I know it's not something that I should worry about, but I really did worry about having an ugly baby. There's nothing worse than parents with ugly babies. They're justly proud of their progeny, but it's hard to be complimentary to a parent whose kid is a halloween mask with legs.

I've gotten more sleep than I expected, and I am happy about that. It helps that Leila's breastfeeding Camille. I don't have to get up for the feedings, since I'm not equipped for it.

Finally, I'm experiencing a love that I never knew existed. I love Leila with all my heart, but the love for a child is different than the love for a spouse. I guess that I have experienced a love of such intensity in my love for Leila, but there's something slightly different when you love your child. Knowing that you're responsible for her changes matters, and makes you want to be the best person you can be.

Lord knows, I am trying to be the best dad ever. I sure hope I succeed.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

My Path to Pilothood: First Flight

The most beautiful dream that has haunted the heart of man since Icarus is today reality.

--Louis Bleriot
I suppose it goes without saying that after years and years of yearning to be in the sky, my first flight was a highly anticipated event. In fact, that may be a gross understatement. I was so looking forward to my first flight that from the moment I found out that I was going to get to go up, I couldn't sleep. I would lay awake, staring at the ceiling, and wondering just what it would be like to be "up there". My anticipation even went so far as to affect my schoolwork. How this made me different from other college students who laid awake at night anticipating the next big keg party, I'm not sure.

My first flight was with James Williams, in a highly modified Cessna 180. And by highly modified, I mean highly modified. He had replaced the original 225 horsepower engine with a 300+ horsepower engine, installed a new three-blade prop, and a STOL (Short Take-Off and Landing) kit. Knowing James' interest in things that went fast and possessed inordinate amounts of power, all the modification was no surprise. James had in the past been a tractor puller, mud-bogger, and had somehow shoe-horned a 400 horsepower 350 cubic inch small block engine into a Chevy S-10. What would have surprised me would be if he had just left his airplane stock.

James' 180 was a taildragger, and he flew it from a short grass strip behind his shop/hangar. On the evening of my flight, I arrived just after he finished his preflight. We buckled ourselves in, and the butterflies came out in full force. My dad had always thought that James was a little on the insane side of the psychological charts, and all of a sudden I was having thoughts that went somewhat like, "WHAT THE @#&$@ HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO?!?!"

Before I could answer, James pointed the aircraft toward the far end of what all of a sudden looked like an extremely short runway. I managed to squeak out, "Shouldn't we back up a little?".

James just turned to me and flashed a grin that exposed that insane streak my dad had warned me about. "Just hold on," he said. Before I could protest, he firewalled the throttle, and I immediately was pushed back in my seat. Our takeoff roll couldn't have been more than 200 feet, and we were climbing at what seemed like a straight-up angle, but was probably more like a 45 degree angle of climb. We reached a thousand feet in no time, and the level-off was more like the reverse of falling off the edge of a table. In fact, it was more like an instant transition from a 2000+ foot per minute climb rate to straight and level flight.

My stomach, which had been left behind on the runway suddenly caught up with me, and kept moving upward until stopped by my tonsils. After a few seconds, all of my internal organs seemed to have settled back into their proper locations, and I was able to look outside.

I instantly knew that I was where I belonged.

Even from the height of a thousand feet, I could see for what seemed like forever. I could make out fields, ponds, roads, and forest. Everything looked like a patchwork quilt, and in my eyes, it was the most beautiful thing I had ever witnessed. As we drifted along, I tried to make out recognizable landmarks. I had lived in the area my entire life, and was intimately familiar with the features of the area, but only from the ground. From the air, everything took on an entirely different look. I would learn later that identifying familiar objects from the air is not as easy as it may sound.

We floated along for several minutes, and then James dipped the right wing and asked me if I recognized the location directly under us. When I replied in the negative, he told me that we were flying over my parents' house and farm. The place that I had lived my entire life looked foreign to me. That is, until I was told what I was looking at. All of a sudden, I started picking out recognizable objects -- my treehouse, my parents' house, my grandmother's house, and my dad's shop. I recognized the pond that I fished in as a child, and the fields that I rode my three-wheeled ATV in.

As we flew on, I reflected on what I had witnessed. For the first time, I had been on the other end of the picture. I had spent so many years standing in those yards and fields looking upward at the aircraft that flew over, and now I had finally been able to look downward at those fields and yards. The significance of this event was not lost on me. I knew that from now on, I would never be content to stand in the yard and watch as airplanes flew over. I would forevermore long to be in those craft, flying over yards and fields while children on the ground watched me.

We returned to James' runway and on approach, the butterflies that had been forgotten on take-off returned. The grass strip that appeared so short on takeoff looked positively tiny, almost non-existent, from this angle. I didn't question the pilot, though, and we touched down softly and taxied right up to the open hangar.

At James' direction, I got out of the airplane and went inside and turned on his runway lights. We were going to visit his flight instructor, and it would be after dark when we returned. After another stomach-swallowing takeoff, we made the short flight to the Statesboro-Bulloch County airport. I spent the flight marvelling at how different things looked from altitude. As we flew over the city of Statesboro, I started to be able to recognize the main highways. They didn't look like I thought they would. They weren't as straight as I had come to believe. This was a revelation to me, since I drove those roads daily, and to see them so differently made me wonder what else I was missing from a ground-bound point of view.

All too soon, we arrived at the Statesboro-Bulloch County airport and began our landing pattern. Everything that was happening was a bit foreign to me, but James tried to explain what he was doing. He explained to me the VASI (Visual Approach Slope Indicator) lights, and asked me if I could see "red over white". I would learn later that "red over white" meant "you're all right", or that you're on the correct glideslope. But try as I could, I just couldn't make out the lights, with all the other lights of the airport.

As we approached the runway, James decided he wanted to demonstrate the performance of his STOL kit, and with the flaps completely deployed, he slowed the aircraft to an airspeed of 35 knots, or about 40 mph. That's much slower than this aircraft should fly, and I managed to intimate that I was duly impressed.

We taxied up to the FBO (Fixed Base of Operation) and James shut down the engine. We exited the aircraft and walked into the FBO building. James was going to introduce me to his instructor. I was expecting a large, John Wayne looking, square-jawed figure sporting a leather jacket and silk scarf. Imagine my surprise when I was introduced to a feeble, very old man who looked very much like he could pass on at any time.

I would learn that Fred Adams had been in the Air Force during Korea, and after that stint in the military had been the corporate pilot for the Union Camp paper company for years. I just couldn't figure out how this feeble old man could be a flight instructor. Didn't the FAA have medical requirements? This old man looked like he would be well instructed to not buy under-ripe bananas, because they might outlast him.

The more I talked to Fred, though, the more I liked him, and my initial impression started to melt away. I could see in him the heart of a pilot, and the soul of a teacher. I saw someone with passion for aviation, and I felt drawn to him. I wanted to hang around with him, to learn from him. I felt as if he wanted to pass on his knowledge, and I wanted him to pass it on to me.

All too soon, our visit was over. We said our goodbyes and made our way back out to the airplane. James started up and took off. On the way back to his house, he even let me take the controls. "Be gentle," he said. That statement prompted a bit of confusion, because in my mind surely you would have to man-handle such a powerful beast as this. But I took his word for it, and found it to be surprisingly easy to maneuver the aircraft with the slightest of control movements. It was even more reinforcement that I needed to fly.

The ride ended much too soon, and as we exited the airplane back at James' hangar, I expressed my thanks. As I drove home, I replayed in my head all that had happened. As I drove those all-too-familiar roads home, they seemed different somehow. They seemed almost as a stranger, as someone I thought I had known, and then realized that they weren't who I thought they were. That short flight changed my view of the world around me, and it filled me with the desire to learn how to do it for myself. And the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to learn to fly from Fred. After all, if he had been able to keep himself alive in aviation for as long as he had, surely he could teach me to fly without killing myself.

It would take several more years before my first lesson, but it was always in my mind. My break came when I graduated from college and got a job that was paying enough that I could afford lessons. It was then that my life truly changed forever.

Friday, May 27, 2005

My path to pilothood

I have decided to complete my flight training, just as soon as I can save up the cash to pay for it. In anticipation of that, I have been reading many online flight training blogs. I have decided that I want to keep just such a blog, and what better place to start than at the beginning?

I have always thought that the journey from little kid looking to the sky to pilot flying in that same sky would make a great book, and I'm sure that it always has. I've also always had the desire to write my own book, but have never really been successful in picking a topic that interested me enough to complete a tome of my own. I think that a book following my journey would be something that I could complete. Whether anyone reads it is immaterial. The accomplishment of actually producing a work of my own will be the reward. (Of course, if it does get picked up by a publisher and becomes a multi-national best-seller, that'd be pretty cool...)

Therefore, I'll be writing my work here. And like I said, I'll start at the beginning...

My Path to Pilothood: The Beginning

Man must rise above the Earth -- to the top of the atmosphere and beyond -- for only thus will he fully understand the world in which he lives.

--Socrates
I can't honestly say that I remember the exact moment in my childhood when I first realized that I had an overpowering desire to fly. I really wish I could put my finger on just what events in my early life led to my heart being inexplicably tied to the sky. But for as long as I remember, I have had the urge to become one with the sky, to experience what I've always been sure is the ultimate freedom -- the freedom of soaring over objects on the ground that have always towered over me.

Maybe it stems from hours upon hours of playing in the fields on the farm where I grew up, watching as everything from small private aircraft to airliners to military transports, bombers, and fighters made their way past in the skies above. My absolute favorite time of the year, however, was the summer, when I had my own personal airshow on a regular basis. Living on a farm provided me with the opportunity to study crop-dusters at work. I was amazed at these aircraft hurtling along at, what seemed to a child, close to a million miles per hour. I stood in wonder as they pulled up violently at the end of the field, just barely missing the trees. I would watch the tops of the trees whip in the wake of the airplane as it passed within feet of the branches. I studied the swirling of the spray, due to what I now understand are the wingtip vortices generated by the wintips of the airplane. It was, to a small child enamored with aviation, a real treat to watch, one which I looked forward to every summer.

Of course, it could be a product of my natural curiosity. Early on, I can remember wondering what mysterious forces kept those craft in the air. I mean, the wings didn't flap like a bird's, so what invisible hand was keeping them aloft? That natural curiosity about all things scientific led to some rather unusual books gracing the bookshelf of a five-year-old. One set of books was a series called "How Things Work", and they must have been products of the Disney Corporation, since they were filled with images of Mickey, Donald and Goofy. The one section of those books that was read and re-read until the pages fell out was the section on how airplanes work.

With the help of the Disney gang, I became familiar with the physics of flight. Of course, at that age I didn't know that I was learning physics. All I knew was that I had finally had explained to me, in terms that I could understand, just what it was that kept those mystical metal bodies from falling into the fields surrounding my house. I wanted to learn more.

Whatever the source of my devotion to the idea of aviation, it is something that has been ingrained in my soul for as long as I can remember.

I had long since determined that the best way to learn about anything is to experience it, to do it for myself. And I had every intention to do it for myself. More than once, my mission to build my own airplane was foiled by the intervention of a concerned parent or grandparent. So much to my dismay, I never actually completed my mission of getting myself into the air.

My desire was not diminished, however. In fact, I found that as I grew, and as my knowledge about such things avian grew, my desire to become a part of "that group" became stronger and stronger. Just what is "that group"? "That group" is the group of larger-than-life, ten-foot-tall, bulletproof humans who dare to trust those invisible forces of physics to hold them up in the sky. They are the group of humans who dare to face certain death in the face and laugh as they soar off into the blue. They are the group of humans who have freedom that a small portion of the population have ever experienced. They are, and have always been, heroes to me.

Fast forward to my college days, and you would have found me working part time for a family friend, who just so happened to have a friend who was a pilot. This pilot was also a friend of my father's, but much more distant than our family friend. It was through this pilot that I received my first ride in a private aircraft. And thus begins the tale...

Monday, April 25, 2005

Houston, we have a new truck!

Modern man is frantically trying to earn enough to buy things he's too busy to enjoy.

--Frank Clark
Well, I went and bought my truck this weekend. I got it from Cleve White Nissan in Statesboro. I got a good deal on it, too. I was able to step out of my Colorado and into the Frontier for just a few more dollars a month. It's worth it to be in the truck I really wanted in the first place.

And what a sweet ride it is. It's smooth, almost car-like, and the V6 with 6-speed transmission is a great combination. Great power, smooth ride, and fit and finish like I've never seen on an American-branded truck. (The Frontier is built in Smyrna, Tennessee, so I guess it's an American-built vehicle, just not by an "American" car company.)

Now I just have to fight the urge to go out and drive just for the sake of driving. The ride's so great that I got no pains from the ride back from my parents' house last night. Leila, all of 8 months pregnant, had few complaints as well, which is a miracle since she's pretty much uncomfortable all the time.

Well, I'm happy with my wheels now. Now I just have to finish getting ready for baby. The birth will probably be in the next three weeks to a month, so we have precious little time.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Another New Truck?!?

Sorry, no quote leading into this post, which will be brief.

I'm thinking of trading my truck, the one I bought in December (2005 Chevy Colorado Crew Cab Z-71 RWD) for a Nissan Frontier Crew Cab with the 265hp V6 and 6-speed transmission. Here's a picture:

{Picture lost in archiving, sorry!}

I know it's crazy to trade so soon after purchasing, but this is the truck I wanted in the first place. I know that I'll take a hit as far as trade value versus what I owe, but if I can get the payments to be about the same as they are now, I'm willing to take that hit to be in the vehicle that I wanted initially.

Turns out that the salesman who took me on a test drive is from Statesboro, and has known my dad for eons, so hopefully, I'll get a good deal from him. It was kind of strange being on a test drive and mentioning that my parents lived in Stateboro and having the salesman say "What's your mom and dad's name?" When I said "Connie and Larry Saunders", he replied "Oh, my God. I've been knowing Larry for thirty years!" The rest of the ride was a homecoming of sorts.

I'm not dissatisfied with the Colorado, but this truck has the 6-speed, which is a blast to drive, and the 265hp engine will flat-out smoke anything but a pure sports car. It's an awesome vehicle. It's also bigger than the Colorado, quieter, and smoother on the highway.

If this comes through, I'll post an update.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

The beauty of implied odds: The thoughts of a fish.

Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe.

--Albert Einstein
This is a reproduction of a post to the rec.gambling.poker newsgroup by Nick Wool. I thought it fit nicely with my post from yesterday.
This really happened at my table in VC poker, 3/6 NL cash game today. This is what the hero would have probably posted after the hand, if he posts at all.

UTG with a stack of 600 raises to 30, folds to me at button. I had 550 and held J2 spades. my hand had so many possiblities; quads, a flush, straights, 2 pairs, trips and two pairs, and with such a strong drawing hand, I can bust him if I hit. I flat called him, not wishing to scare the fish away because I wanted to suck him into the pot with my strong drawing hand, which gave me great implied odds.

Flop was Ts 2h 6c. I now have the possiblity of a runner runner quads, a runner runner boat, runner runner flush, as well as the possibility of two pairs or trips with the next card. Time to make a move. UTG checked to me, I bet 70, UTG reraise to 250. Gotta, you fish! Now I have him exactly where I want him.

I pushed all my chips to the middle. He called without hesitation and flips over AA (in VC, the cards are turned over in all ins, even in cash games). Turn was a 3 c, and river 2 h. I busted the fish with my J2 suited.

What a fish, how could he push with AA on a blank flop? I had so many outs, and for all he know, might have had hot a set! The fish was whining about my play, as fish usallu do after they lost a pot, but has he not heard of implied odds?

I kept quiet because I did not want to wise up the fish. The moral of the story? Call with any two cards, the implied odds are masssive.


BTW, the hero also busted another player with KK later in an all in preflop hand. The hero was UTG+3, raised to 30, LP and cutoff calls, KK at button reraised to 450 all in, heros calls without thinking, LP and cutoff folds. Hero flips over T8 suited. The flop? 679....

When asked why he called, hero replies 'I had strong straight and flush possiblities, and anyway, he might be have been bluffing.'

And to think with players like these playing for these stakes,. I am still down for the month.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Stupidity Abounds

You call...gonna be all over, baby.

--Scotty Nguyen
Examples of stupidity can be found every day. When you play poker online, you can pretty much count on being bombarded with high-level stupidity. Take the following hand that occurred in a special sit-n-go on Absolute Poker today...
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Stage #108507462: Holdem Multi ARP Tournament No Limit $50 [ 2005-04-13 11:58:17 ]
**** ANTE [dealer 9] ****
Seat 1 - JSAUND22 $3345 in chips
Seat 2 - GETSOME $2395 in chips
Seat 3 - HARPER420 $4390 in chips
Seat 4 - MRJACKASS $2985 in chips
Seat 5 - ACE_KILLER $1365 in chips
Seat 6 - TRAILBOSSTED $6065 in chips
Seat 7 - MERLIN_36 $5250 in chips
Seat 8 - HIGHSWR $5920 in chips
Seat 9 - ROLAND L $2505 in chips
JSAUND22 - Post small! blind $50
GETSOME - Post big blind $100
JSAUND22 - Pocket [4s,Qd]
HARPER420 - Folds
MRJACKASS - Calls $100
ACE_KILLER - Folds
TRAILBOSSTED - Calls $100
MERLIN_36 - Folds
HIGHSWR - Raises $100 to $600
ROLAND L - Folds
JSAUND22 - Folds
GETSOME - Folds
MRJACKASS - Calls $500
TRAILBOSSTED - Calls $500
**** FLOP [Jd,4d,Jh] ****
MRJACKASS - Checks
TRAILBOSSTED - Checks
HIGHSWR - Bets $1400
MRJACKASS - Calls $1400
TRAILBOSSTED - Folds
**** TURN [Jd,4d,Jh,5h] ****
MRJACKASS - Checks
HIGHSWR - Bets $1000
MRJACKASS - All-In $985
HIGHSWR - returned ($15) : not called
**** RIVER [Jd,4d,Jh,5h,8d] ****
MRJACKASS - Calls
HIGHSWR - Calls
**** RESULT ****
Total Pot($6720)
Board [Jd,4d,Jh,5h,8d]
JSAUND22 - Folded on the POCKET CARDS
GETSOME - Folded on the POCKET CARDS
HARPER420 - Folded on the POCKET CARDS
MRJACKASS - Total ($6720) All-In HI : ($6720)Flush, jack high [5d,2d - B:Jd,B:8d,P:5d,B:4d,P:2! d]
ACE_KILLER - Folded on the POCKET CARDS
TRAILBOSSTED - Folded on the FLOP
MERLIN_36 - Folded on the POCKET CARDS
HIGHSWR - HI:Two pair, queens and jacks [Qh,Qc - P:Qh,P:Qc,B:Jh,B:Jd,B:8d]
ROLAND L - Folded on the POCKET CARDS
Now, for those of you who can't read a hand history, here's what went down. MRJACKASS is to the right of HIGHSWR, who is one to the right of the button. HIGHSWR is holding pocket queens, while MRJACKASS is holding 5d2d. MRJACKASS calls the $100 big blind, as does TRAILBOSSTED. HIGHSWR raises to $600, and it folds around to MRJACKASS, who calls! TRAILBOSSTED calls also.

The flop comes Jd,4d,Jh and MRJACKASS checks. TRAILBOSSTED checks, and HIGHSWR bets $1400. MRJACKASS calls, with a baby flush draw (!!!), and TRAILBOSSTED folds.

The turn is the 5 of hearts, and MRJACKASS checks. HIGHSWR bets $1000, and MRJACKASS calls all-in for his last $985 (with nothing but a flush draw, with a possible full house on the board!).

The river is the 8 of diamonds, giving MRJACKASS a flush to beat HIGHSWR's two pair.

What's amazing is that this guy calls all the way, calls all-in, on just a flush draw where there's a possible full house. Here's a transcript of the chat that followed:

HIGHSWR: damn, shoulda known better
HIGHSWR: i managed to stay away from that river **** all game
HIGHSWR: this site just ******* lays in wait for u
MRJACKASS: i agree been beat way too many times on the river
HIGHSWR: that **** just happens here way too often to be random
HIGHSWR: vnh tho
MRJACKASS: yes it does...and ty
JSAUND22: i thought the only screwy part of that hand was that
JSAUND22: he called all the way with 5 2
JSAUND22: lol
MRJACKASS: suited
HIGHSWR: lol, the best hand in AP
JSAUND22: oh, yeah, sooted
HIGHSWR: top pocket pair wins about 10 percent of the time
MRJACKASS: otherwise i wouldn't have
The really funny part is that HIGHSWR thinks the site's rigged against him, and MRJACKASS thinks it's just fine to call all the way with a draw to what might very well be the second best hand.

But those folks are the ones that people who actually know what they're doing make their money off of.

Idiots. Gotta love them, if for nothing else than the entertainment factor.

Monday, April 4, 2005

A Good Night at the Tables

Last night I stayed up late playing poker with Tarot cards. I got a full house and four people died.

--Steven Wright
Well, nobody died, but I did have a pretty late night Friday night. I was playing in the PokerSourceOnline.com $5k freeroll on Absolute. The top 54 places paid, and there were 475 people registered when the tournament started. All I can say is I'm lucky to have survived the first hour, since I didn't see a playable hand the whole time. It was basically post blinds and fold for the first hour, and then for the next half hour after the first break.

I finally started to see a few good hands, and managed to work my chip stack up. I had about an average stack going into the second hour, and with blinds at 300/600, I found myself at an extremely tight table. This made it pretty easy to steal the blinds when I was on the button or one seat to the right of the button. All it took was a minimum raise when everyone folded around to me.

I did pretty well all through the second and third hour, keeping my stack at about average. Not too far into the third hour, I was in the money. The antes had kicked in sometime around the middle of the second hour, so I had to play a few more hands to pay the antes.

I had my sights set on position 36, which was the next step up in money, when the bad beat hit. The blinds were 500/1000, and I was on the button with KQ suited. Everyone folded around to me, and raised to 2000. The small blind folded, and the big blind went all-in. I had him covered by a couple of thousand, and he had been going all-in to steal anytime someone raised because he was short-stack at the table. I called. When the cards turned up, he had pocket 9's. The first card off on the flop was a King, and I was good to go. But when the river came up a 9, I was down to just over 2 times the big blind.

I never really got anything good to play after that, so I finished in 40th place, out of 475. Not bad, and I made $17.50 for my efforts. I figure that works out to $5/hour, since I played for about 3.5 hours. I was out of the game at 1am, and was really ready for bed. I was getting pretty tired, and I think it was about to start affecting my decision making.

All told, I'm happy with my performance, because I had every chance to bust out during the first hour and a half. I had plenty of bad aces and mediocre kings that many folks would have played, but I had the discipline to lay them down. I didn't chase any long-shot draws, and didn't siphon off my chips to the competition. So I feel like I scored a victory just by surviving as long as I did.

Of course, that $1250 first place payment would have been nice. Maybe later this month. PokerSourceOnline is having another $5k freeroll on Party. I guess I'll give it another shot. It doesn't cost anything but time, and since I'm going to play for free anyway, I guess I should at least play in a game that may pay.

Thursday, March 3, 2005

Another sporadic update

Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

--Steven Wright
It seems that I've been paying off the future at work and paying off now here on the blog. My apologies.

Truthfully, though, it has been hectic at work. Between trying to get our software updated and ready for a new release and taking care of customers, I haven't had time to do much of anything. And then when I'm at home on the computer, I'd really rather surf or play poker.

It's not like I haven't had anything to write about. We had another ultrasound (of the 3-D variety) and the baby weighed 3 pounds, 2 ounces. Getting to see the face, however blurry and orange, was just amazing. I'm really looking for Leila to give birth sometime around mid to late May, even though her "official" due date is June 5. I just don't think the doctors will let her go that far, not at the rate the baby's growing. But the baby's healthy, which is the most important thing, and the sex is still a mystery. Just the way we want it.

I have a few things in mind for the future. I'm planning to cut back on the poker so I can get into some other things that need doing. I need to get the house straightened up before baby arrives, and I really want to get the garage cleaned out. It would be nice to actually be able to use it for something other than a dumping ground.

I have some web work that I want to do. I want to work on our family site, which will include this blog, but at a different address. I want to work on some other web projects which have been stewing in my mind for a couple of years. Specifically, I'd love to get started on creating my on-line aircraft building log and my online pilot's log-book. These will probably be parts of the same site, so it'll be a little different than the online logs out there now.

I'd also love to write a multi-user image gallery in PHP, since the only one I've found that I really like is written in Perl. I'm not a huge fan of Gallery, the standard PHP gallery script. It's clunky, and not truly multi-user. It's more like "any-user", and what I want is a script that has secure accounts for upload, so you have to be a member to add to a gallery. As a member you would have your own gallery space, just like in the Album.pl script I'm using for KN members.

I really don't know where I'm going to find the time to do all of this, but the family site is my first priority. The family is getting bigger, and I want to share it with everyone.

Wednesday, February 9, 2005

Variance

It's not enough to succeed. Others must fail.

--Gore Vidal
At the moment, I'm the "Others" that Mr. Vidal was referring to. Another way of putting it for those who have studied the math behind poker is, "Variance is a bitch". I'm on the backside of variance right now. It seems that every time I get my chips in with the best hand, someone playing a hand that they should have folded pre-flop catches a monster.

Here's an example: Last night in the practice round for the freeroll I was playing, I was holding A9 of spades. I raise $100 (blinds are 10/20) and get two callers. Flop comes 4-9-6. I push all in, having top pair, top kicker with the undercards being cards nobody in their right mind would call my raise with. I get a caller, and she turns over 8-4. Turn is a 4, and the river is a 4. She caught four of a kind, and I'm out. I then find out that she had never played before last night. Great, just my luck to go heads-up with someone oozing with beginners luck.

But it's called variance bacause it does just that -- it varies. So I know that if I stick it out, my luck will turn around. But it's hard to deal with the downswing. More to come as this story develops, as the newshounds say.

Atlanta Ice Storm

Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up, snow is exhilarating; there is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather.

--John Ruskin
It's pretty obvious to me that Mr. Ruskin never had to weather an ice storm in Atlanta. We had a doozy about a week and a half ago, and between being iced in, working, and feeling like crap because of the wild swings in temperature (30* one day, 68* the next) I haven't done a very good job of keeping up with my blog. For the one reader I may have, I apologize. I'll try to do better, although it seems like the weather swings and workload aren't going away any time soon.

So there. That's my apology. Let's move on, shall we?

Monday, January 10, 2005

Fair Tax for all!

We contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the handle.

--Winston Churchill
Past history has shown us that there is a disparity between the two major parties in this country. Historically, the Republicans have espoused a love for smaller government and lower taxes. Democrats, on the other hand, have seen fit to try to put every aspect of daily life under the auspices of the federal government, and pay for it by increasing taxes on the "rich". Keep in mind that your definition of "rich" and a Democrat's definition of "rich" may not exactly coincide.

In the last couple of years, I have come to the conclusion that the two parties have the exact same love of big government. The only difference between the two is that the Republicans don't want things to happen quite as rapidly as their liberal counterparts. Then again, the federal government has increased more under the first administration of George Bush than it did under both terms of Bill Clinton.

Aside from the dreadful lack of constitutional education in this country, and the constant political brainwashing performed by government-run schools, the biggest problem that this country faces is the detestable income tax system we all live with. Some of us live under the immense weight of the tax code, while others live off of the largesse that the politicians spew out to the "less fortunate" of society.

What we really need is genuine tax reform. I don't mean a simplification of deductions or a reduction of rates. The current tax system is akin to that rusty 1973 AMC Gremlin in the bushes. It needs to be scrapped and replaced by a 2005 Corvette. Likewise, the current tax system should be scrapped and replaced with an alternative that will offer the high performance boost that our economy needs.

My choice is the Fair Tax proposal, put forth by U.S. Congressman John Linder. (You can read the proposal here.) While this plan provides for the continuance of the transfer of wealth to those who have not earned it through government social programs, it does dramatically change the tax structure from a mandatory tax to a voluntary one. This is a good change in that under this system we could actually choose the amount of tax that we pay.

For those who didn't follow that link and read the bill, the Fair Tax can be summarized thusly: Abolish the income tax and the IRS and institute a national retail sales tax. That sure is a lot simpler than the current system, isn't it? The percentate of sales tax has been calculated to be in the 18-23% range, and while this seems excessive, keep in mind the amount of embedded taxes we already pay.

An example would be a purchase of $50. Of that $50, approximately 22% is in the form of embedded taxes. What are embedded taxes? Embedded taxes are the taxes that the manufacturers of all the components of said product paid (and passed on to their consumer, the final producer) as well as the taxes paid by the final producer and passed on to the store, as well as the taxes paid by the store and passed on to you, the consumer. Got it? The Fair Tax does away with that embedded 22%, bringing the cost to you, the consumer, to $39. Let's just assume that the federal sales tax rate will be 23%, the highest discussed. Add the sales tax to the cost of the item and you have $47.97. You have just witnessed a net reduction in cost of goods to the consumer by just over 4%.

Another thing to keep in mind is that under the Fair Tax you will no longer be paying any payroll taxes (Medi-scare, Social inSecurity, etc.). All of these government programs will be covered by the income from the Fair Tax. So instead of going from having 15% of your paycheck swiped from you up front, you get the whole thing. On top of that, every month the government will refund to everyone the amount of taxes that they have paid on the necessities of life, such as food, clothing, and shelter. Now, here's the one place I disagree with the Fair Tax proposal. The proposal is to cut checks or make bank transfers to rebate this money. If those on government assistance can have their EBT cards, why can't taxpayers under the Fair Tax system have their Tax Rebate card? It's not feasible to write that many checks, and I don't really want to give the government access to my bank account, even if it is just for deposit. Just a thought to those of you at Fair Tax headquarters.

The real strength of the Fair Tax is that it eliminates taxes on corporations. Not that corporations ever paid taxes in the first place -- they just added their cost of taxes to the price of their product and passed it on to you, the consumer. Without corporate taxes, however, the United States would instantly become the place to be for a corporation. There have been stories in the news about companies moving offshore to escape corporate taxes. Imagine the rush to come back to the United States if all corporate taxes were instantly eliminated. We'd have companies banging on the door to get in, and the economy would absolutely explode. Unemployment? It won't be a problem, since there will be more jobs than we can fill.

The absolute best part of the Fair Tax (to me, anyway) is the reason it will probably never pass. Politicians have turned class warfare into an art, and they practice it mercilessly. Every election, you hear the Republicans screaming that the Democrats want to raise your taxes (and they do) and you hear the Democrats screaming that the Republicans want to cut social programs (and they used to). With the passage of the Fair Tax, all of a sudden this kind of campaign rhetoric becomes useless. Everyone pays the same tax, and they pay it based solely on their desire to spend. The use of the tax code as election leverage is not available any more, and most politicians won't give up their leverage.

I encourage you to all visit the Fair Tax website and learn more about this bill. The implications for our economy are overwhelming, but it will never happen without a grass-roots uprising. It's time to get active.

Wednesday, January 5, 2005

Thoughts on Social Security

However beautiful the strategy, you should occasionally look at the results.

--Winston Churchill
One of the Bush Administration's main objectives for the new term is the reform of Social Security. As a member of the sub-30 age group, at least for a couple of more years, I have to say it's about time. From the time I started receiving a paycheck, I have never thought of Social Security as something I could count on. I've always considered that deduction from my paycheck as money lost that I'll never see again.

Since I've always considered the Social Security deduction nothing more than government-sponsored theft from my paycheck, I'm looking forward to at least being able to take a little bit of that money and investing it in a private account. At least that much will be mine. The dirty little secret about Social Security is that there is no account with your name on it. Your deductions just get put in the big communal pot, and if you happen to live long enough, you might see a little of it every month.

The real problem with Social Security is that the money we've been paying in isn't there. It has been appropriated by politicians for uses other than it was intended. It's been happening for years -- politicians in Washington have put forth grand social spending plans, for which funding was not available in the general fund. To make up the shortfall, they simply siphoned the funds from the Social Security trust fund. By sometime in the next decade, all that will be left in the Social Security trust fund is a bunch of IOU's.

That's why reform is desparately needed. With private accounts, you will own your account, and the money in it. The politicians will have no rights to siphon that off for their grandiose spending plans, which is one of the reasons that they will fight tooth and nail to prevent it. Another reason that many of the liberal persuasion will fight any kind of reform is that privatization returns at least some of the control of the people's future to them. In the mind of a liberal there's nothing worse than an individual taking responsibility for their own well-being. When that happens, they are no longer relying on the government for their future, and to liberals, everything should be a function of government. (Never mind the Constitutional limitations on the federal government -- those have been ignored for decades. But that's another topic.)

The frustrating part of the whole Social Security reform business is the stance of groups who ostensibly have the well-being of senior citizens in mind. The AARP is at the forefront of fighting any kind of reform, regardless of the fact that the current system will be bankrupt in 2018. By fighting against reform, they are dooming those who will be alive and relying on Social Security in 2018 to a life with none of the promised support. My belief is that the AARP's opposition is more political than anything else. I base that statement on some of the claims the organization has put forth regarding reform.

The AARP claims that the Bush Administration wants to cut benefits. Not true. Everyone who does not qualify for a private account will receive all of the benefits that have been promised to them. There has been no proposal put forth by the Bush Administration to reduce benefits to current Social Security recipients, or even for those who are rapidly approaching retirement.

It's fearmongering tactics such as the ones being used by the AARP that lead me to believe that they are more concerned with politics than with the well-being of America's seniors. The question for us now is are we going to let them sway us from acting to save a system that is rapidly sliding down the tubes? Are we going to let the fearmongering by liberals in Congress and their lapdog organization the AARP keep us from setting up a system that will provide even better for future seniors than the current system does for current seniors?

The answers to these questions lies in how much backbone the Republicans and conservative Democrats (is there such a thing, now that Zell Miller's gone?) in Congress can muster. Truth be told, I don't have much confidence in Republicans being able to muster any backbone. The chances of that actually happening aren't borne out by history. If anything, the chances are better that the Republican majority will fold like a wet noodle in the face of lies and fearmongering by the left. Unfortunately it happens too often.

In the meantime, I'll be making my retirement decisions without the promise of Social Security. There's no way I'm going to count on a system that will have been bankrupt for twenty years by the time I retire.

Monday, January 3, 2005

Why I Play Poker...(and it ain't the money!)

Whether he likes it or not, a man's character is stripped bare at the poker table; if the other players read him better than he does, he has only himself to blame. Unless he is both able and prepared to see himself as others do, flaws and all, he will be a loser in cards, as in life.

-- Anthony Holden ( from "Big Deal" )
I'll confess -- I really enjoy playing poker. If my wife reads this, I'm sure she'll be rolling her eyes. She's not big on the whole gambling idea, and I don't really blame her. It's easy to get addicted to, and you can lose everything you own. It's happened to better people than me. That's why I don't play for money. I play at the freeroll tournaments that are being held in nearly every bar in the Atlanta area. No-Limit Texas Hold-Em Poker is the biggest thing to hit Atlanta since Sherman held his little barbeque.

So if I don't play for money, why do I play? It's a question that I'm asked often by my lovely and understanding wife. The answer is not as simple as it may seem. When I really think about why I play, several reasons come to mind.

The first reason is because I'm a geek, and I love the math involved. Odds, outs, percentages, they facinate me. It's one of the reason I love to watch poker on TV -- you get to see the players' hole cards and the percent chance they have to win the pot at any given time. I've always liked math, and the math involved in poker is more than basic, to say the least. It changes with every turn of a card.

The second reason is the psychological aspect of poker. At its most basic level, poker is a game of psychological warfare. The most important weapon is being able to read your opponent. Can you bluff them out? Are they holding the best hand? These are questions that you have to answer without the benefit of current information. You have to answer these questions for yourself based on past experience. Your observation skills and memory are your best friends in this case. You have to remember how someone plays. For instance, I played with someone who I found would fold his hand if you bet the exact amount he had in his stack. If you just went all-in, he was likely to call. Think I won a couple of pots against him with nothing? You bet I did. I took his weakness and exploited it. Psychological warfare.

All that aside, the main reason I play is because the game's just plain fun. It's a good way to get together with friends, aquaintances, or plain strangers and have a good time. Especially when you're playing in a freeroll tournament. It's very rare that someone will leave mad, because what did he lose? He paid nothing to enter. And where else can you have five hours of fun for free? Last I checked, the arcade wasn't giving away tokens for free.

I play because I enjoy it, and for no other reason. I don't have a driving desire to win, I have a driving desire to have a blast. And I do, even when I bust out early. I have found that playing for the sheer fun of it makes it easier to be a good player. When you don't feel that your manhood is riding on whether or not you get taken out by the guy (or gal) across the table, you become a much more levelheaded player, and thusly a much better player overall. When you take pride out of the equation, it allows you to assess your own weaknesses frankly and honestly, and your play moves up a level.

So for those of you who play, have fun at it. Don't let it become an obsession, but have fun. For those who have never played, give it a shot. You may find that you are pretty good, and you may have found a new pasttime.

Private Space Flight Cometh

Humanity must rise above the Earth, to the top of the atmosphere and beyond, for only then will we fully understand the world in which we live.

--Socrates, 500 B.C.
 One of the most exciting news stories of 2004 was the completion of the quest for the X-Prize by Burt Rutan and his Scaled Composites crew. In case you missed it, Burt and company managed to launch the first private-sector astronauts into space, recover them safely, and repeat the feat within two weeks. And they did it all without any help from the government.

The feat that they accomplished is all the more amazing in that the space vehicle (SpaceShipOne) is made completely of composite materials and utilizes no heat shields. Hopefully NASA is paying attention. The recovery is accomplished without the violent re-entry that we've all become accustomed to seeing through the use of a shape-changing spacecraft. The tailfeathers of SpaceShipOne rotate upon re-entry and cause the spacecraft to flutter back to earth like a shuttlecock, instead of burning its way through the atmosphere, a-la the Space Shuttle.

It has always been my belief that left to our own imagination and inventiveness, that man can overcome any obstacle, and Rutan managed to overcome an obstacle that NASA continues to just deal with. Rutan made a lot of noise in the days and weeks leading up the the launch of SpaceShipOne needling NASA for their inefficiencies, and while somewhat mean-spirited at times, it was right on the money. The shuttle has been in service since what, the early eighties, and in that time what has changed to make space flight safer? Not much. The safety of the crew still relies on extremely fragile heat shielding tiles upon re-entry. I sincerely hope that NASA sits up and takes note of the fact that re-entry can be achieved much more safely.

But that's not the point of this missive. The point is that private space flight is coming, and coming fast. It won't be affordable enough for the masses to begin with, but neither was airline travel. Now, I can fly from Atlanta to San Francisco for a hundred bucks. The same will be true of private space flight.

BBC News has an article (go there) detailing the involvement of the billionaire founder of Virgin Atlantic airlines Richard Branson with Burt Rutan in the creation of the first private fleet of spacecraft. The sole intention is to take civilians into space, and in coming years to do it cheaply enough to allow almost anyone to make the journey. The exciting part is that the spacecraft can take off from one location and land in another. Could this be the future of trans-oceanic flight? Quite possibly, and the implications of that are dire for trans-oceanic airlines of today.

This appeals to me because it is reminicent of the beginnings of aviation as we know it. We're looking at the beginning of a new era of human flight, and when you realize that you're living in a time when history is being made and appreciate it, it's all the more amazing what Rutan accomplished. He didn't just win a million-dollar prize, he took the sole ownership of the realm of space away from governments and placed it firmly in the lap of private citizens. The challenge in the future will be keeping the governments of the world from attempting to quash private space travel in the name of "safety".

It's an exciting time to live in. I'm glad I'm around for it.

Saturday, January 1, 2005

The Year of "Little One"

A baby is God's opinion that the world should go on.

--Carl Sandburg
As of midnight last night, this officially became the year of "Little One". "Little One" is our first child, due to be born on June 5. We refer to "Little One" as "Little One" because we have made the rather uncommon decision to not find out the sex. Some may think that this is strange, and not conducive to being prepared. Leila and I, however, have no real preference on the sex of our child (and so what if we did?).

Our main argument is that there are so few good surprises left in life, why shouldn't we just let this one happen on it's own. This is our first foray into the parenting world, and I have a feeling that the surprises that "Little One" will leave us will be nowhere near as pleasant as the surprise of finding out the sex upon birth.

Both of us are extremely excited about the forthcoming birth of our first child. I have to say, Leila is an absolutely gorgeous pregnant woman. She's also got a mother's instinct that cannot be denied. My fervent hope is that I will turn out to be as good a father as she will be a mother. I do not doubt my desire to be a good father. In fact, one of the only things I asked for specifically for Christmas was a book or two on being a good father. My worry is in the execution. If I screw up a program at work, I can go back and fix it. I'm pretty sure the same does not hold true for being a parent. I've got one shot at it, and I can't blow it.

All anxiety aside, I can't wait to become a father. My only question is what do I do if it's a girl? Not that I don't want a girl -- I truly don't have a preference. It's just that I have experience with boys. I used to be one. I have exactly zero experience with little girls. Plus, I'm pretty sure that a little girl will grow up to become a teenager who'll want to date. I'm also pretty sure that she'll want to get married. Scares the bejeezus out of me. But it's all part of parenthood.

All in all, I can't wait. I'm loving Leila being pregnant. She's absolutely glowing (and I didn't really know what that meant until she became pregnant!), and aside from the nausea, she's doing very well.

What a year it's going to be. The year of "Little One"!